Time to tell you that my latest song, “48 Crushes …

Time to tell you that my latest song, “48 Crushes On You”, is online and has already been nicely remixed by two guys whose work I really appreciate: TONE396 made a dubby remix and AGENT LOVELETTE headed for a bitcrushed direction.

Here’s the links:

Eve Massacre: “48 Crushes On You”
“48 Crushes On You” (TONE396 remix)
“48 Crushes On You” (AGENT LOVELETTE crushddd remix)

Here’s the lyrics:

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“48 Crushes On You”

I’m a morphodite love song

I’m a bi-curious scream queen
And yes, I’m a better man than you
I’m a female macho
I’m a handcuffed hunk
If I was your personal Batman, what would you rather be?
Would you be Robin or Catwoman or would you be my Batmobile?

I got 48 crushes, I got 48 crushes on you.

I’m a morphodite love song (sing “I”)
I’m a lipstick lezzie
I’m a part time breeder (be mine)
I am 48 genders and rising (48 times 48)

I’m a multiple choice vamp (vampire)
I’m a high heel butch
I’m phallistically aroused (rise higher)
I am 48 genders and rising

Nipples don’t lie
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Gender diversity is a subject that often keeps me busy. I think that life is so much more colourful and full of possibilities if we accept that there’s no limit to the facets of gender we actually have. Instead of eliminating gender I’d rather play with it and accept that I have dozens of gender identities, depending on the situations I’m in or with which people I am. It goes so much further than just being a woman in one situation and a girl in another, being a whore to some people and bearing motherly features for others. When I put on my mascara and lipstick I sometimes feel like a boy who plays with make up. Sometimes the dominance I learned by achieving my position as one of few biological females in a mostly male context makes me feel like some tough guy and I even find myself acting like one, for example sitting with my legs wide open and resting my hand on my thigh in a macho pose. The next moment it’s the other extreme and I find myself holding my cigarette or glass in a totally effeminate camp way. I like that. And I like to watch this happen to other people too. I don’t really feel like getting profound on this right now but I hope you get what I’m talking about. That’s what this song is about: I’m 48 genders and rising. Of course it also is a love song. And thanks to SUZIE QUATRO and SHAM 69 for inspiration. And thanks once more to René CKID for forcing me one step deeper into the endless possibilities of Fruity Loops. 😉

Two older mash ups back online: The first one was…

Two older mash ups back online:

The first one was mentioned in this wonderfully written and interesting article on Bootleg Mixes on Pitchforkmedia:
“Puritan Blister #7
The Psychopathology of Everyday Mash-Ups
Story by William Bowers”

i wish i knew how it feels to talk loud and clear
OMD: Talking Loud And Clear
Nina Simone: I Wish I Knew How It Feels To Be Free
März: Everybody Had A Hard Year
+ some Dead Prez & X-Ray Spex


nanananananaaa – wanna be the man with the child in her eyes
Placebo: I Do
(IMO this is one of the best songs they’ve ever written – a perfect short indiepop smasher with beautiful lyrics like “i wanna take a bath with you / wash the chaos from my skin” vs Kate Bush: The Man With The Child In His Eyes
(Nice news: I read that she finished recording a new album.)
vs Ce’Cile & General Degree: nanananana
(Taken from a compilation called “Two Culture Clash” (2004, Wall Of Sound), it also has nice tracks by Ms. Thing and Tanya Stephens.)

If I tell you that Xiu Xiu’s ‘La forêt’ and Antony…

If I tell you that Xiu Xiu’s ‘La forêt’ and Antony & the Johnson’s ‘I Am A Bird Now’ are my fave soundtrack to the last couple of days you can imagine my mood. Like the weather it slightly cleared up on a really wonderful post-wedding party of Wally & Klausi last Saturday (and I thought I’d never say that about any wedding ever!) but all in all I feel to fragile to meet people. Fear of people getting too close. Fear of old memories coming back haunting me. Fear of anything. Feels like if I don’t act really careful I might slip in an even worse condition. Stupid, innit? It feels being a character in one of those old arcade games – one wrong step and you will burn in some hellfire, all accompanied by funny bleepy little tunes.
Even more stupid: There’s a website called “Stuff On My Cat” that made me try if it works out with my Tiga too and to my surprise he didn’t kill me when I did that to him:

More reasonable news later.

LIVE 8 quote / Musings on Smoking The TAZ, a germ…

LIVE 8 quote / Musings on Smoking

The TAZ, a german newspaper, nicely summed up LIVE 8, here’s an attempt of a translation:

“Everything has to move so that nothing moves. A spectacle like LIVE 8’s lack of content is visible in its total lack of consequences. If there were real consequences linked with LIVE 8 – consequences beyond asking the powerful to please be a little less evil – it never could develop the dynamics that make up its attractiveness. Thus it is the testimony of a will that in its good-will-ness is absolutely helpless in changing the course of the world by information/education. Information/Education that gave up any possibility of real exertion of influence in favour of a feeling of bigness.”

Musings on Smoking

Lately everywhere debates about smoking pop up – among my friends, on messageboards, on TV news and ads etc. On one of those messageboards someone posted an essay by S. Weingarten that was quite an interesting read.

Today the only way of talking about smoking in public seems to be talk about health. Non-smokers rant about their right for physical inviolacy whereas smokers claim their individual right to self violation. Weingarten wonders if it’s really always just talk about health when the bad effects of smoking are criticised. She quotes C. Tate, a historian concentrating on anti-smoking campaigns since the beginning of the 20th century in the USA, who says that (like almost any debate in the USA) the smoking debate there is charged with moral fervour and smokers have become morally stigmatised as society’s dissenters. In Europe, where religion isn’t as dominant and where people don’t have such strong moralistic reflexes, smokers might not be seen as devil’s agents but instead as miniature manifestations of factories that pollute the environment. Here in Europe health is the new moral benchmark.

Frank Furedi, a british professor of sociology, says: “In the past you were a good person if you went to church, today you have to buy organic food, eat vegetarian, don’t smoke, don’t drink.”

Health politics became so strong because of a lack of other moral standards to base society’s rules on. Now health is what separates responsible from irresponsible actions, good from bad. Health can easily be used for that as it is so closely related to our individual existence. It’s all about self interest and survival instinct. That’s why, argues Furedi, we internalize messages connected to health much easier than big philosphical or religious ideas.

Furedi also explains why he thinks that governments today concentrate on things like anti-smoking campaigns and other aspects of health policy: The national state’s capacity to act became more and more constricted by economical pressure, so it needed something else to legitimate its authority. It was found in the politics of behaviour: the state starts to adjust people’s individual actions like an incapacitating nanny that only wants your best and who doesn’t care if you agree or not. Weingarten gives as example: The state pays less dole but cares more for people by forcing them to lead a healthier (= longer) life. Furedi is afraid that the more the nanny state manages to keep us busy worrying about our health the more we lose our political and societal imagination. These worries make us give up parts of the control over our decisions and our lives while at the same time those anti smoking campaigns promise us control. If you can’t control the world, says C. Tate, you start controlling smaller things to proof your authority. Maybe you can’t prevent the next act of terror and you can’t keep people from losing their jobs but hey, you can force people to stub out their disgusting cigarettes!

With health politics the difference between social classes have returned. Social context, income and education influence if you smoke or not. Middle and upper class are far more receptive for health messages. The higher the income, the lower the smoker’s quote. The suggestion that to stop smoking only is a matter of willpower seems paradox against the background of this knowledge but this still is the predominant view on smoking. This willpower is connected to moral categories like self-control, reasonable and methodical action, sense of responsibility and superiority, whereas weak will stands for lack of discipline, dependency, heteronomy and dissoluteness. This is how a moral gap between (mainly middle-class) ex-smokers and (mainly proletarian) still-smokers is torn up. The moral undertone of the smoking debate thus has dangerous potential for discrimination against a whole class.

Because of their educational advertising activity health politics can claim that every citizen is in a position to act reasonably health conscious. But that also means that health becomes a matter of everybody’s personal responsibility: you have to live your life preventive. The German drugs scientist H. Schmidt-Semisch explains the dangers of this way of thinking:

This could mean personal responsibility for any kind of risky or unhealthy behaviour. Following this logic the self-violation of smoking becomes an external violation of the collective and thereby totally morally despicable. Thus the inhibitions against economical consequences fade away. The smoker, the overweighed person and many more are turned into deniers of a preventive lifestyle who caused their harm themselves, and thus they finally are looked upon as social insurance frauds, argues Schmidt-Semisch. It bears a health risk, it is seen as avoidable, it is potentially harmful for others, a large part of the population is concerned (a third of all grown-ups in Germany smoke for example): Smoking is perfect to open the doors for the exclusion of certain kinds of perilious behaviour of the benefits of compulsory health insurance funds.

Well, those moral implifications of smoking and the point about controlling little things to feel more secure in an environment that seems more and more uncontrollable, might explain the sometimes surprisingly aggressive tone in which non-smokers criticise smoking or make jokes about it. Funnily though, digging through possible unconscious things I might like about smoking I confess: control might be one of them. Control over what harms you while most of the time you don’t have this choice. Plus: The incomprehensibility of harming yourself at all with a drug that doesn’t even get you high. Of course the boring main reasons are some sort of addiction, the good taste and the distraction. Nothing like savouring a cigarette and a glass of something while talking to good friends. Although I often don’t smoke for a couple of days I’ve never really thought about giving it up. If that makes me one of the bad guys, well, be it.

read more:

Susanne Weingarten: 11.Gebot – Du sollst nicht rauchen
Cassandra Tate: Cigarette Wars – The Triumph of “The Little White Slaver”
Hess, Henner / Kolte, Birgitta / Schmidt-Semisch, Henning: Kontrolliertes Rauchen – Tabakkonsum zwischen Verbot und Vergnügen.

LES GEORGES LENINGRAD were awesome! A breathless…

LES GEORGES LENINGRAD were awesome! A breathless urban tribal whirlwind, a sweaty 80s no wave revival, and there was much more 4-to-the-floor energy than on their album (which seems a bit muddled compared to what they play live). Their costumes and absurd announcements spice that up into something more like a live experience than just a show you watch. I’m in love! 🙂

ARIEL PINK seemed to be… hmmm… a bit of a touchy diva on stage which killed most of the potential vibes of his music. There were some beautiful moments but overall his behaviour sadly outweighed those. I really like his record but live… I don’t know. Would be interesting to know if it was the same in other cities.

I put pictures of LES GEORGES LENINGRAD up here.
And here are photos of the SPACEHORSE and DEAD LIKE DALLAS show which Urte took cause her camera didn’t work and she’s the better photographer anyway. Which you might already have seen if you witnessed one of the “More Than Music” exhibitions that took place 2001-2003 in Germany and Denmark. If not you can check the myspace site they now have.
Oh, and I uploaded another mash up: “Tom’s Diner continues” which uses DJ Koze’s “The Geklöppel continues” as backing and Suzanne Vega’s vocals. I cut her singing a bit up to get a little scat singing effect.

With the intenseness of last night’s show still in my bones and on my mind I read an interview with AN ALBATROSS on popmatters.com and these lines seemed quite quoteworthy to me:

“I think the need for community is reflected in the way we live our lives. I think it’s reflected in the Internet and the cubicles we work in. It’s reflected in people living their lives vicariously through reality television, watching American Idol rather than singing in the shower. Our construction of community is a direct antithesis to the hyper-individualism that is sweeping across our culture. I think that everyone is living so compartmentally that if for 15 to 30 minutes per night I can get onto a stage and provoke some sort of group reaction in real time, in real life, where you’re standing next to other people and having an experience as a group, it’s something very different from the direction in which a lot of our world is going. It also correlates very nicely to the ancient tradition of people getting together around music. That is such a beautiful aspect of civilization, and to have that lost in today’s world is such a frightening scenario. It’s a very healthy idea to melt down the barriers between band and audience and force this experience on people. Indifference to it is probably the worst thing that could be expressed.”

They also reminded me of what Michael had written about Big Brother on his “One Body, Some Genders” blog which is always an interesting read.